Final Essay
June 8, 2007Hello there! So this past year has been a great year for me, and hopefully for you too. I’ve learned so much, from ESLR’s to how to write, and I hope I have improved in all areas. In these next three paragraphs, I’m going to show you how I improved in three out of five ESLR’s. This might even show you how great of a teacher you were, if at the end you feel like I have come a long way.
Being a self-directed learner may sound easy, but it actually isn’t. I had the misjudgment that it was and I thought “oh this is going to be the easiest one to accomplish, because all you have to do is know that you’re learning for yourself and to do homework.” But as this year has gone by, I have realized something very different from what I have expected. In the beginning of the year I made a t-shirt for the Lord of the Flies project. This made me more confident and made me feel that I could do what I wanted to, just as long as I wanted it enough. Before this year, I knew that I had an idealist’s mind and not a logistics’. As I made the t-shirt, I thought about what the final result would come out as and I wasn’t so sure I wanted to make a t-shirt anymore. Even though I was creative, I knew I wasn’t artistic. I really wanted to be able to draw, so I decided to do my best and draw my way through this, and I was so glad that I had, because I found a new talent in me. No, not drawing, it was being able to do what I wanted to even if I wasn’t good at it. This may not sound like a great accomplishment to you, but to me, it was one of the greatest accomplishments I have accomplished. Throughout the poetry quarter, I also found a new side to myself and realized a totally different way that I could express myself. It felt good to know that I had more than one passageway to expressing my feelings. I also became more organized, especially after I lost my study guide for a class, so I guess it was a good thing that I lost that, otherwise I wouldn’t have learned from it. I think that others have noticed this change in me too. On the night of the dinner dance graduation, I received an award for ‘student most likely to write a self help book on organization.’ I thought this was funny, because I did not feel like I was an organized person. On the way home from the graduation, I thought about why I was given that award. Then it hit me, maybe the teachers don’t think I’m organized, and that’s why I have to write a book on it! I never came to the conclusion whether that was a good thing or not, but in the end, I realized that it doesn’t matter what others think, well it does, it’s just not enough to make me change my mind about how much I improved.
Another ESLR that I believe has shown my improvement was the Effective Communicator. I guess I was never a good speaker in large audiences, and I don’t have the ability to give a message in a creative way. As I have realized that I can’t do those things, I don’t see myself ever having to do that, because when I grow up I don’t want to be a lawyer or anything, so I guess that’s okay. In this English class though, we had to write essays! Sure, I’ve written essays before, but none of them had any feeling that I had really shown. But this past year, I had to write essays that had voice and still be informative. At first, I didn’t really like the sound of having to do that, but it’s not actually that bad, because you get to be yourself and tell the reader whatever you wanted them to know. By now, I think that I have improved in the area of writing and speaking to convey ideas and information. Another way that showed I improved was in the poetry unit, again. After I found a new way to show my feelings, I felt that I had learned a whole new language.
So an involved citizen is a person who tries to help others in the world, like donating to charities and building shelters for the homeless. But we, as children, don’t really believe we can change the world. We think that if you were a billionaire, then you could help a country or two and make them more civilized. This brings me to the topic in Lord of the Flies: who are the civilized people? We are not sure, but we will always believe it’s ourselves. We think that we are the best and that we can rule the world because we have money and nice clothes and computers. But this is not the way life works. People can enjoy life in a way that’s different from ours, and we don’t have to try to change it. Also, maybe we should help the people that have are drowning and starving, not the ones that are poor and are living on limited supplies. They already have food, water, and shelter, not very good or enough of it, but they’re still living and able to walk. There are others out there who don’t have anything but near death chances. So I guess what I’m trying to say is that we (children) can change the world, little by little. We can start here, at this school, as much as you might not think it needs help, it does. There are lots of things going on in the school that shouldn’t be, and no one is even bothering to stop it. All they are trying to stop is the grades falling so that they get a good record on the lists of international schools in Malaysia. I’m not criticizing anyone, because if I was in charge of this school, I’m pretty sure that a good record would be the main concern. So right now, many people in the school are helping others in need, which leads to more kindness spread throughout the school. If you think about it, kindness is kind of contagious, in a way. I believe that I have already helped a few people in my grade, which has made us better friends, and that leads to more love for everybody else, so it’s a win-win situation. Another reason that shows that I improved involves everybody in this school. Some people believe that certain races are all bad and no good can come out of them. They will always have bad things to say about others that they are usually jealous of or don’t understand their point of view. So, by attending this school I have been able to meet people of all race (well, maybe less than half, but that’s more than I know) , and that is a great accomplishment alone.
This has been the greatest English class I have ever been in, because you, Mr. Raisdana, have made this class that not only is about academics in English, but rather a class about life. ESLR’s aren’t the most exciting things to write about, but I hope that you have found this more interesting than usual ESLR essays. I have tried my best to not make this boring and make it bring back memories that have been left in the distance.
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